I wake up comfortable and relaxed, but the weight of sleep is still on me. I try to move my arms, but consciousness hasn’t reached my extremities yet. I feel paralyzed, like my mind is awake but my body is not going along with it. It’s dark, except there’s a light shining on my face… like the moon. But it’s so bright it can’t be the moon. What is it? I feel the dirt floor beneath me and swivel my head to see more dirt on either side. Where am I? I’m so disoriented that I can’t place myself. I push with all my might to lift one arm, which raises as if a ten-pound weight is shackled to my wrist—and then stops about eight inches above the rest of my body, at an impasse. The rugged texture against the back of my hand feels like more dirt, and I can’t move my arm sideways more than a few inches.
“What’s going on?!” I say, aloud. My ears hear their own voice and detect that the sound is muffled, like I’m inside of something. But that light is still shining in my face. I tilt my face toward my chest but my eyes, blinded by the light above, can’t see into the darkness that surrounds me. My hands come to life and feel around the dirt on the ground, but once my arms push a few inches to each side, there’s just more dirt. My hands follow a wall of dirt upward several inches or so, tracing the soil, and then curve over and above me. I look back up toward the light, but the contrast is blinding. The brightness fades behind a cloud, revealing a short tunnel dug out through the ground above my face, which opens up to the sky. As the texture of the earthen tunnel comes into focus, so does a realized panic. I’m buried. Buried in a hole. My arms tremble as they push up on the immovable ceiling of earth that surrounds my body. Claustrophobia sends tremors through my nervous system.
“What the fuck! What’s going on?!”
An abrupt sound slashes my quivering fear, sending a shock wave through every cell in my body. The growl of an animal… and then another. Choked into silence, I lay frozen trying not to disturb a single pebble of the earth beneath me. A second goes by, and then another snarl jerks my senses. A shadow blocks the light streaming into the hole above my face, followed by a glimpse of beige fur.
The slow idle of a throaty growl echoes down the two-foot long shaft from above. I try to squinch my head to the side to avoid the sight of the beast, but I can’t move more than an inch. The snarls continue, followed by billowing snuffs. It knows I’m here. And then, the face of a mountain lion and its piercing eyes move over the hole above me. I try to turn away, but there’s no escape. I peek out of the corner of my eye at the creature above me. It bares its fangs and roars. A paw slaps the inside of the hole, and its face darts a few inches into the opening and then reflexively back again. The beast pulls its head away, and it’s out of sight but the moans and hissing continue. And then I hear something else—a voice, a voice within the hissing, “Come out,” it gargles. Another guttural moan disguises the same words, “Rrrr—come out!” it grumbles, in a feminine tone.
I’m shaken to my core by the sound of this voice. My body trembles uncontrollably. The lion shoves its head down into the hole. Her face is about a foot above my own, writhing against the hole’s circumference, trying to push further down the canal. But the gap is too narrow. I recoil and convulse, attempting to move out of sight, but it’s no use—I can’t move; I’m stuck in this hole. Petrified, I let out an enormous roar of my own, “Aaaaarrrrrrr!” which pushes the lion’s face back out again.
“Rrrr—come out,” she says, again. One terrifying green eye slides back into view, and another loud snuff blows dirt down into the hole, agitating my eyes. A loud purr turns to a hiss, “Come ouuut.” Her pungent breath travels down the channel of earth and sweeps across my face. “Why won’t you come out?” she moans, “I want you.” I hear paws disturbing the sandy floor above as she circles the hole I’m imprisoned within.
She plunges her head back down into the passage, pressing against the walls of the earth, revealing her fangs. Her breath billows down the shaft enveloping my face in her dank musk. She gnashes her teeth only eight inches from my face. “Aaaaarrrrrrrr!!!” I scream again, but this time she roars back. “Aaarrr! Aaaarrrr! Aaarr!” I continue, and the lion roars back with greater force.
Within the hurricane of opposing roars, gnashing teeth, and terrified screams, a small piece of the storm breaks away. A tiny drop of saliva dislodges from the lion’s mouth. It falls downward through the tempest of wailing contention, unfettered by the whirlwinds gusting all around it, until the droplet makes impact against the back of Jason’s throat. His jaw slams shut.
The mountain lion pulls back out of the hole and emits an excruciating scream, followed by a long vocal snarl, “Why won’t you come out?!” I hear thunderous thrashing and scraping aboveground, followed by intermittent seething.
Now I begin to writhe and churn within my confinement, which turns up a dry cloud of unsettled dirt. I choke through my wailing and shrieking, “Help! Get me out, get me out!”
In an instant, the flash of a claw tears across my face. Searing pain pushes all of the air from my lungs. My chest shudders, gasping for air until I feel the sensation of wet blood gushing down my face.
“Jason!”
“Aaahhhh, aarhhhh, aahhh!”
“Jason! Jason! Are you okay?”
I’m gripping the steering wheel. I look to the left to see Becky shaking my arm through the window of my truck. Through hyperventilation, awareness returns. My screaming stops, but I’m panting as if I’ve run a marathon.
“Jason, are you okay? Say something.”
“I’m okay, I’m okay… I… don’t know… what… ” I collapse into emotion. I pull Becky close to me and squeeze her, sobbing and shuddering.
“It’s okay, my love, I have you; it’s okay. You’re okay.”
I gasp for air until, my sobs turn to short sporadic breaths and long deep sighs. I loosen my grasp and pull back, looking deep into Becky’s eyes. My breath continues to heave, but I just keep looking into Becky.“
I don’t… I’m not sure what… ” I say, struggling to catch my breath.
Becky rubs my shoulders through the window in an attempt to calm my nerves. “We’ve gotta stop meeting on the side of the road like this,” she says, wide-eyed. “People are going to wonder what kind of an arrangement this is.”
And then, in an instant, my car fills with a deafening roar. Becky’s face wrinkles with anguish and blood gushes from her mouth as a mountain lion sinks its teeth into her neck. Her head reels backward and her body is jerked to the ground. The desert erupts with growls, grunts, and screams of flesh-ripping carnage.“
Noooooo!” I scream, jolting up from the graveled dirt next to my truck. “Aaaaahh! Aaaahh, aaaahh!”
And again, there’s nothing. Nothing but the wind, my truck, and my screams—filled with uncontrollable heaving. I slam my face into my dusty hands. “Aaaarrrr!” Screaming, I search for where Becky’s body should be. I look all around me for a hole in the ground. I spin around, searching for what may be behind me, then back in front, jerking my sight in every direction for any sign of a predator. But there’s nothing. I fall to my knees, wailing, and grasp handfuls of dirt. I release another enormous howl that echoes into the emptiness of the desert and then I slump to the ground and lie there, moaning.
My breathing begins to slow but, as it does, an internal trigger sends wind blasting back into my lungs. I jump back to my feet and dive into my vehicle. My foot slams down on the gas pedal, and my truck spins around, sending desert gravel flying as I blaze back onto the road. The engine roars past neighborhood markets, packed condominium developments, dusty ranch homes, and vacant lots until I get to that little adobe shack at the end of the road. I bang on the door with my fist until it opens. As soon as she’s in my sight, I throw my arms around her, pick her up off the ground, and squeeze her tightly. We fall to the floor in each other’s arms: kissing, embracing, crying and kissing.
End of Scene.
As I approach the front door, I see a woman at the reception desk. She’s waving her hand vigorously as if trying to shoo a mosquito. But as I walk through the door, I hear “Good morningggg! Good morning!” she exclaims again. The bombardment of excitement streams across the lobby as she waves her waggling hand in my direction.
Oh yippee, a new flight attendant, I conclude, wincing at the energetic chipmunk with dark brown bangs.
“Hi, there!” she chirps.
“Hello,” I respond, trying to make my way past her with as little contact as possible.
“It’s a beautiful day today, don’t you think? Today is my first day, but I think it’s gonna be a good one, don’cha think?
I look back through the window toward the gray light and then back at her, “Yeah, I guess.” Her body pivots like a gun turret maintaining its target as my pace quickens.
“I’m Becky; pleased to meet you!”
“Jason,” I respond, “nice meeting you.” I’m past her now, my hand’s on the doorknob to the office. I’m almost there.
“Well, I’m looking forward to getting to know you, Jason. Have a great day!”
“You too,” I say, safely through the doorway.
“Good morning!” I hear her chirp as I glance back to see Delores coming through the front entrance just as I pull the door shut.
I settle into my desk and close my eyes, hoping that relaxing my body will allow the exhaustion to flow out of me.
“Tuckered out again, I see,” Randall’s voice bellows from within his cube. “Out gallivanting? When you gonna take me with?”
“Nah, I’ve been trying out this new meditation practice, and it doesn’t seem to be working.”
“Isn’t meditation supposed to help you sleep better and wake up more relaxed?”
“Well, it’s not quite meditation—it’s something else; I don’t really know how to explain it.”
“Does this have something to do with that Native dude I saw you leaving here with the other day?
“Uhm, yeah, I guess,” I say, staring at the wall of my cube.
“Dude! Do you have a shaman?”
I close my eyes, shaking my head, “No, uh, no. It’s not like that.”
“What’s it like?”
“It’s hard to explain; he’s just some guy I met at the carpet store. But then I saw him again on the side of the road, and then I dropped him at this rich lady’s house, and some bizarre things kind of happened with a gecko.”
“Holy shit! Dude, you have a shaman!”
Just then, the door from reception opens, and the new flight girl pokes her noggin through the opening. “Hi, Jason. Becky,” she says, pointing to herself, “we just met in the lobby. I was wondering, do you know any good places to eat lunch in the area?”
“Lunch? Isn’t it a little early for lunch?” I reply.
“Oh, yes, of course, I mean for later, when it’s lunchtime.”
“Uh, yeah, there’s plenty of places to eat around here.”
“Oh, neat! Would you mind showing me where a good place to eat would be?”
Out of the corner of my eye, I notice Randall gawking.
“Sure, but Randall is a self-proclaimed foodie and I’m pretty sure he knows a lot more places than I do.”
Randall perks up, “What kind of culinary fare rocks your world, Becky?”
“Well, what is your favorite place to eat, Jason?” she responds, ignoring Randall.
“Uh, well, I like this noodle place, and it’s pretty cheap, so I go there a lot.”
Randall starts to comment but Becky blurts, “Oh, I love noodles! Do you think you could show me how to get there? I don’t know my way around here very well yet.”
“Uh, I guess I could, but it’s not that hard to find—”
“Oh, wonderful!” Becky cheers, before I can finish.
“How about 12:30?”
What Rachel said yesterday about feeling pushed through a door against one’s will flashes into my mind. I sit bewildered by the agony of what I already know I’m about to agree to. Then, as if the word climbs out of my mouth on its own, I utter, “Okay?”
“Great, it’s a date!” Becky responds gleefully, then her little head pokes back out the door like a chipmunk disappearing into her hole.
“A date?” I mutter, to myself.
With eyes closed, I turn toward Randall before opening them to the image I had already conjured in my mind. His mouth agape. “Duuuude,” he whispers.
Just then, a shadow appears over my desk. I look up, and it’s Rachel. She slams a cup of coffee on my desk like a judge would a gavel. “Sorry for all the drama yesterday,” she snarls, storming down the aisle toward her desk.
Bearing witness to the verdict of coffee, Randall points to the reception area and then to me, then to Rachel, and then back to me. He whispers, wide-eyed, “Damn, dude… when do I get to meet this shaman?”
Before I can respond, the door opens again and Rich Stern walks in.
“Rich!” Randall announces in a loud whisper,
“Jason has a shaman.”
“No, I don’t have a shaman.”
“He does,” Randall refutes, “he’s been hanging out with this Native guy.”
“No, I haven’t,” I say, debilitated from lack of sleep and impatience with this conversation.
“Been holding out on us?” Rich replies. “You on some kind of a vision quest?”
“Guys, please, I’m tired and have a lot of work to do.”
“That’s okay,” Rich responds. “Randall, I need you to run me through the digital strategy on the stuff-making concept. Can you join me in my office, please?”
With Randall out of the way, Rachel’s cup of coffee is the kickstart I need to wallow through the next set of spreadsheets. I finally get into a number-injecting rhythm when the door opens, after what feels like only minutes.
“12:30! I’m ready for some noodles; how about you?” Becky beams.
“Uhm, I’m kinda stuck on this deadline; I’m not sure I can make it.”
“Oh no, I was so looking forward to noodles,” Becky despairs.
Just then, Leslie lumbers up on her way past my desk. “Jason, you gonna leave this poor starving child with no place to eat? Whatch’you working on here that’s so important?” she says, glaring at my screen over the wall of my cube. “Oh my word, that thing ain’t due ’til next week. Get your butt out of that seat and show this girl where to get some good eats.”
She turns to Becky, “Where you planning on going?”
“Jason said he knows of a noodle place.”
“Oh, you going to Mama’s. It ain’t just a noodle shop no more! Uh uhh. She’s got a whole new thing going on over there… and it’s hotter and spicier than ever!” Leslie looks at Becky, “girl, you’re gonna like it!”
With my cover blown and no way out, I succumb to the imminent torture of lunch with Becky. “Okay, give me two minutes and I’ll meet you out front.”
Becky squeaks with delight and skips through the door.
Three minutes later, we’re in my truck, on our way to lunch. The conversation with Becky on the trip to the restaurant is like communing with a game of Wack-a-Mole.” I am so excited to try out your noodle place, Jason! I feel so lucky that Mr. Stern hired me; I love this job already. What do you do when you’re not at work?” Before I can respond to one question or comment, a new one pops up. I widen my eyes, both in an effort to stay awake during the drive and in response to the sustained impact of Becky’s one-way Twitter conversation.
At last, we arrive at Mama’s. I look up at the sign that used to say: “Mama’s Pho (Mama’s Noodles)” but the new name is unmistakable in large, red lettering: “Mama Pho Ga’s.” Wow, I think, looking up at the sign through the windshield of my truck. “Leslie was right; this is different.”
“Hmmm, Mama Fo Ga’s,” Becky iterates aloud.
“Actually, it’s pronounced a little different,” I reply, looking to see if she catches the double meaning. She doesn’t, and I don’t bother to interpret.
We walk in and wait at the hostess stand. “I’m so excited to try your noodle shop, Jason. I just love the bright colors in here! I hope it’s not too spicy,” Becky tweets.
A minute later, an elderly Vietnamese woman swings past the hostess stand, “C’mon, Jason. I got you, honey.” The tenor of her voice creaks like a rusty door hinge, but it has a snappy cadence intensified by her Vietnamese accent. Mama must be in her mid-70s, and she sports a gray coiffure wound up with purple hairdresser curlers. She wears a tight T-shirt that accentuates the individual rolls of flesh that jostle around her midsection as she walks us to our table. The T-shirt serves as an informal uniform, bearing the restaurant’s new name and logo: Mama Pho Ga’s Spicy Hot Noodle.
We follow Mama back into the dining area and sit at a yellow Formica table with vinyl chairs on either side. Both table and chairs are accentuated with chrome trim befitting a pinball machine. White globes encased in metal bird cages hang from the ceiling, illuminating the otherwise drab interior.
“Where you been, Jason? I haven’t seen you for a while,” Mama says.
“Oh, been busy, I guess; I see you’ve rebranded the place.”
“We sure did!” Mama shouts. Most of her speech is annunciated as an exclamation. “Leslie’s, the bomb, she’s so talented! She did our logo and menu and all our T-shirts.”
“Oh, cool, I didn’t realize Leslie did the work?” I say, remembering her last missed deadline.
“You know I kicked my ex-husband to the curb last year. All he did was sit in the back and watch the internet while I ran this whole place. Finally, I said enough is enough. I said, ‘You gotta go.’ You know he cried like a baby. He was like, ‘I’ll be better; I’ll help you more.’ I said, ‘Nope, uh-ah honey, it’s too late for all that.’ I didn’t come all this way from Vietnam to be his slave—mm-mmm no more.”
“Well, that’s quite a name change!” I say, looking at her T-shirt, which features noodles and chopsticks extruding from a bikini bottom.
“Don’t look at me dirty, Jason! You know, Leslie said to me, ‘What do you want the new name to be?’ I said, ‘I want it to be simple, like Mama’s Chicken Soup.’ So she asked, ‘What’s the words for chicken soup in Vietnamese?’ I said, ‘Pho Ga.’ And she started laughing hysterically. I said ‘What so funny?’ Then she said it all together, ‘Mama Pho Ga.’ I still didn’t get it. So she said it again, louder, ‘Mama FUH GA!’ Then I start laughing too! And we said it over and over, ‘Mama Pho Ga, Mama Pho Ga.’ That was it, new name! Like it?”
“I love it!” I reply, chuckling.
Becky has her hand over her mouth, covering up a snicker.
“Oh, look, Jason, I embarrass your girlfriend.”
“Ha,” I say, shaking my head. “No, we just work together. Today’s Becky’s first day on the job.”
“Oh, so you jumped on her the first day? Ain’t gonna give no one else a chance? I don’t blame you—she’s a cute little lady.”
Becky looked at me, nodding in agreement, “I think I like your Mama.”
“Wow, it’s getting hot in here,” I say, wiping my forehead.
“It’s gonna get hotter now,” Mama replies.
“Whatch’you gonna order, Becky? You look to me like you go for some big spicy meat in your soup.”
“Uhm, how big is the big spicy meat?” Becky asks.
Mama extends her two index fingers, holding them four inches apart. “Four inches, spicy eye-round; five inches, add spicy flank steak,” as she continues enlarging the space between her fingers at each interval. “Six inches, add spicy beef balls; seven inches, add spicy tripe; and eight inches—” she says, holding her hands a foot-and-a-half apart, “spicy tendon!”
“I think I’ll have it with the smallest spicy meat, please.”
“Girl, you go slow; that’s okay. You try a little more every time you come back, and pretty soon, nothing else will do,” she says, taking our menus. “Jason, I got you, honey; I know what you like.”
Once Mama leaves me stuck alone with Becky, whose Wack-a-Mole tweeting has subsided for the moment. Now she’s grinning at me while staring into my eyes.
“So, Becky, where are you from?” I say, attempting to break the awkwardness.
Becky doesn’t say anything back, she just smiles at me some more. Eventually, she says “All over, I guess,” without breaking her focus.
“So, what do you like to do when you’re all over?” I reply.
After a brief pause, she says, “I love my garden.”
“Oh, so you’re a gardener?”
“Yes, I am!” she replies proudly. “I think of them—my plants and trees and herbs and flowers—as my little friends. I talk to them, give them water, and tuck them into their little patches of soil; I love them so much. They are my favorite people.”
“So—you must be a big salad-eater?”
“Oh no, I never eat them. I just eat other peoples’—it’s less personal, mine are too precious to me. They glow with such colorful vibrance and smell like the sweetest perfume. I’m so lucky to have them in my life. I love sitting among them, surrounded by all of their vitality.”
“So you’re sort of a vegetarian? Do you normally eat meat?”
Just then, Mama comes back with two steaming bowls of soup. “Here your noodles with spicy meat,” she says, placing the bowls on the table.
“Only certain kinds of meat,” Becky responds.
“What kinds of meat are the certain kinds you eat?” I reply.
“Right now, the spicy kind!” she says, widening her eyes at the bowl of soup in front of her.
“That’s what I’m talking about, honey,” Mama remarks. “Spicy kind is good!”
Mama walks away, leaving us to our soup. “What a funny spoon,” Becky says, looking at the oversized ceramic soup spoon.
“Have you eaten pho before?”
“Fuh—what’s fuh?” Becky responds.
“It’s spelled P-H-O, but it’s pronounced ‘fuh.’ That’s why the new name is so evocative.”
“Oh, I see… but how do I get these noodles onto this spoon?” she says, making futile scoops into the bowl of noodles.
“With the chopsticks.”
“Oh, I never learned how. Do you think they have any forks? Oh—Mama, may I have a fork, please?” Becky asks as Mama walks past.
“Sure thing,” Mama says, without breaking her stride toward the kitchen.
“Thank you,” Becky shouts. “I’ll just eat the broth until she gets back,” she says, slurping a massive swallow of soup. “Oh! Oh my!” Becky says, waving her hand in front of her mouth. “This is so spicy!”
“Is it too much?” I ask, squinting my eyes as her face turns bright pink.
“No, no, it’s delicious,” she gasps, slurping up more of the broth.
“That’s how you eat soup, girl; you got the hang of it,” Mama says, setting the fork next to Becky’s bowl.
Becky begins spinning the noodles around her fork like linguini and then crams a colossal spindle of Vietnamese pasta into her mouth. Her voice, muffled by the enormous mouthful that bulges her cheeks on both sides, groans, “Mmm, it’s sooo good! Oh my goodness, this is amazing,” as she swirls up another yarn ball with her fork and spoon while chomping like a cow to a bowlful of cud.
Becky continues devouring her food as if it is her last meal and could be taken away at any minute. Her complexion is now the color of watermelon, her eyes stream with tears, her cheeks are so stuffed they would be the envy of the most laborious of squirrels, and lanyards of noodles pour from her mouth like a waterfall. The whole scene makes me laugh hysterically. Neighboring tables notice the spectacle and snicker to each other. “Don’t laugh at me, I can’t help it,” she slurps, wiping her nose. “It’s just so… mmmf, mmm, mmm.”
After lunch, on the ride back to the office, Becky leans her seat back, rubbing her belly like a pregnant woman who just had a near-death experience. “Oh my. Oh my goodness. What happened to me? I’m so full!”
I open the door to the office for her. She wobbles through, hunched over, cradling her noodle baby with both hands.
“I’m sorry you’re in so much discomfort,” I empathize.
She stops, turns around, and rasps in the voice of a petite Godfather, “That was the best lunch I’ve ever had. That was so much fun. I’m gonna remember this forever.” Then she kisses me on the cheek and mopes back toward her desk.
“You’re hilarious.” I say, squeezing her on the shoulder on my way to the back office.
While looking down, with one hand gripping her desk to hold her weight steady, she sighs, “Thank you.”
I exit through the door into the back office, laughing out loud to myself with a big smile. Just before I sit down, I notice Rachel’s annoyed grimace at my intrusion on her state of concentration from several desks back. In contrast, Leslie’s grinning face nods in approval.
I spend the rest of the day trying to stave off a no-sleep, noodle-induced coma. At the day’s end, as I trudge through the door into the lobby, I wonder how Becky’s afternoon went, but she’s not at her post. Out in the parking lot, I put my key into the door of my truck while longing for my bed. This thought is snatched away as I nearly jump out of my skin, surprised by a voice directly behind me.
“Hi, Jason!”
With my shoulders squinched up to my ears, I spin around to see Becky standing so close to me that my belt buckle snags on the middle button of her shirt.
“Hi, Becky,” I say, attempting to regain my composure while unhooking myself from her clothing.
“I was wondering if you’d like to come by and see my garden sometime?” Becky asks.
“Sure, yeah, that would be nice… sometime.”
“Great, how about this weekend?” she cheeps.
“Wow, I see you got the snap back in your step, Becky.”
“How about Saturday?” she says, her focus undeterred.
“Uhh, let me check my schedule… ”
“Sure, go ahead,” she replies, blinking patiently.
All I can think of is how desperate I am to go home and sleep. I let out an exhausted sigh, “Okay, sure, Saturday.”
She thrusts her hands into the air and shimmies her hips, mambo-style. “Yayyyy! See you at twelve noon on Saturday!!”
“Okay, see you then,” I reply, opening the door to my truck to punctuate the end of the conversation.
Scene End.
My escape into nothingness surrenders to the scrutiny of the clock. Before I succumb to its will, I pull my truck off the highway at an abandoned gas station—to take a leak and savor one last pause before re-entry. All that remains of the gas pumps are large metal shells, hollowed out by rust. They stand like two decaying skeletons under a cement slab overhang. Both artifacts lean wearily in front of an empty, one-room structure whose curves and angles suggest the art-deco influence of their time.
After I finish, I stand for one last moment in the empty silence among the ruins before the journey back. This old ghost station was probably a frequent stop when the last of the copper mines still provided life support for the local population. Decades of neglect have left it overgrown with desert weeds and dirty white paint peeling away to reveal older dirty white paint.
My moment is disrupted by the appearance of an SUV slowing its pace to pull into the ghost station. The vehicle is an enormous white behemoth, one a modern-day Captain Ahab might spend his life in pursuit of. The driver waves his hand at me as he pulls off the highway onto the dirt shoulder. The car comes to a full stop and out of the driver’s side door emerges a man who—while still exiting his seat—bellows in the direction opposite me, “Is this what you locals call a rest stop?” I look over at the dilapidated structure and turn back to him to say, “No, I don’t think so. I just stopped for a break.” He adjusts his shirt at his waistline, still looking away from me, giving me no sign that he heard my response. Next, a large woman exits the passenger seat, exclaiming, “Dan, what am I supposed to do here? You should have stopped at that last town.” The rear passenger doors fling open, releasing a pudgy little boy, pursued by his toddler sister, from their hours of confinement.
The man rambles on, still looking away from me while turning his big head side to side—from the gas station to the road ahead and then back to the station. The man never turns off his motor. The radio continues playing while he blathers about their trip from Indiana, the mundane details of their itinerary, and the history of the town they plan to visit. Amidst the rambling, his wife disappears behind the empty station house, the boy begins playing with his remote-controlled robot, while his sister holds a steady, low-pitched whine.
“Yeah, we’re driving all the way from Sterling, Indiana. It’s been a long ride. We’re on a tight timeline; gotta go another hundred miles before we check in at the Double Tree. Boy, this place sure is desolate.” In the background, the boy’s robot mimics the sound of a 3 a.m. car alarm and the toddler’s whining increases between the pauses of the pulsing siren. The man continues to drone on with his small talk, never once looking directly at me. “Geez,” he says, “I wonder who ran this old place? How many cactuses you think are out here?”
As I marvel at how the family’s enormous presence overwhelms the once-empty desert solace, I look over to see the boy steering his robot toward a horned lizard that is lying peacefully in front of the station. The boy mimics the sound of laser guns as he drives his toy machine closer to the lizard. “Rrrrrrrr,” he growls. “Pacheeeow pacheeeow—I’m gonna getcha. Pacheeeow.”
The lizard seems to be in a deep meditative state, his mind and body coexisting in two separate places, his awareness detached, in a higher plane above the pending turmoil. But as the toy grows closer, he jolts back into the unfortunate circumstances of his physical reality. His head snaps in the direction of the ominous figure’s approach. He scurries to make his escape but, in his haste, runs headlong into the cement wall of the station.
Stunned, he darts in the opposite direction but runs into the feet of the faltering toddler, who lets out a startled screech when the lizard bounces off her pink rubber Crocs. The reptile makes one last maneuver and runs toward the rear corner of the station but, just as his escape appears imminent, the woman comes back around the corner, adjusting her desert ensemble, exclaiming, “We sure are living in the wild now!” The heels of her shoes crunch the pebbly sand with bone-crushing forewarning, causing the horned lizard to turn anxiously again. His final about-face places him in the ominous shadow of the robot, with the outline of its towering frame eclipsing the sun behind.
Surrounded, the lizard freezes, halting in a vigilant posture. His focus turns inward as time slows. The clamor of the loud-mouthed family fades to a muted hollow. The lizard’s quickened heartbeat and breathing grow louder inside his cerebrum. The multitude of scales on his skin begin to flex and the pressure from the expansion of his innards constricts his rapidly increasing blood flow. His body swells to twice its size, and his eyes bulge out of his skull like bubblegum.
The sight of the tiny monster’s metamorphosis in proximity to her children strikes terror in the mother, provoking the convulsive heaving that comes just before hyperventilation. She points her finger in horror but gags as words try to escape her mouth. “Eeaaarrrghh!!! What—” her lungs shudder as she tries to inhale “is tha-a-a-at!” When she finally gains a full breath, her exhale produces a scream reminiscent of a low-budget horror film. The piercing intensity of her screech acts like a trigger inside the reptile’s brain and the pressure inside his head climaxes, causing a long, electric stream of blood to shoot from his left eye socket. A portion of the discharge glances off the robot, but the prevailing trajectory meets the boy’s plump cheek, spattering droplets of bitter red liquid onto his lollipop-stained tongue.
The moment of impact elicits a flash of silence—like a wartime explosion that deafens all those in proximity. In this pause in time there is no sound, no movement—a halt in the collective attention of all present, as if the universe itself is in awe of what is happening and has suspended its role as passive observer to capture this phenomenal incident on galactic film. The flash from this cosmic camera stuns everyone, until the ringing in their ears caused by the explosive aftershock transitions into a wretched scream.
Wailing like a wounded crow, the boy flails backward, onto the desert floor, landing his pudgy little behind directly on a small cactus. He lets out a second, more deafening howl that joins the harmony of screams of his mother and sister.
His father leaps into action but flounders in his attempt at triage: trying to pick the boy up, brush the cactus needles off his behind, and wipe the blood from his cheek with a shirt sleeve. The writhing child slips out of his father’s grasp and falls again, landing on the very same cactus. The boy emits a third needle-induced holler while his mother begins swinging her purse at her husband with tomahawk repetition, shouting, “You fucking imbecile! You worthless idiot!” All of this occurs with the toddler’s bawling in the background.
Several miles above, a hawk is soaring peacefully on the thermal air stream rising from the desert floor. Her eyes flutter half-closed as cool air flows between her feathers like fingers through silky auburn hair. Her mind reaches out across the endless expanse of uninhabited terrain, but echoes of the discordant frequency below disturb the wind’s euphoric caress. She closes her eyes and tilts her wings to alter her flight pattern in pursuit of the sanctuary of a fresh, blissful breeze.
Amid the roadside chaos, the father picks up the boy again, as if attempting to recover a fumble. As he retreats toward his vehicle, he shouts at me, “What do we do? Is that thing poisonous?!”
Upon hearing the word “poisonous,” the mother stops in her tracks and turns to me with eyes as wide as onion rings. “Is it? Is it poisonous?! Is it? What do we do?!” I hold my hand out in front of me, as a buffer against the rapid succession of her interrogation.
“I don’t know. I have no idea!” I say, squinting back at her.
The mother roars at her husband, “Get us to a hospital! Start the car! What are you waiting for? Get us out of this place!” Her husband is already in the driver’s seat with the boy strewn across his lap. His wife wrenches her daughter off the ground, provoking a three-octave escalation of the toddler’s crying, and plows into the back seat. The Whale Car speeds out of the station in a cloud of dust.
As the hazy cloud of dust clears and the sound of the SUV speeding toward the horizon dissipates, the sanctuary of quiet returns. I stand, bewildered, in the reclaimed stillness of the aftermath.
When my attention comes back into focus, I see the horned lizard standing there—half on and half off the yellow highway divider line—looking right at me. A red tear of blood still hangs from his eye. We stare at each other for a moment. The silence is disturbed only by a gentle wind rustling over sagebrush before he turns to walk back into the desert.
After a few more moments, I get back in my truck and begin to pull onto the highway. As I drive away, I glance in the rearview mirror to see the toy robot lying on its side against the curb amid a tangle of weeds and roadside debris. His eyes reach out to me as if I’m leaving him alone in a desert purgatory, doomed to a graveyard of forgotten memories. He lies there against the curb like a pawn, sacrificed by a five-year-old.
Scene End
Dream Fisher fuses metaphysical intrigue and the absurdity of every day life to create a wildly entertaining story.
Dream Fisher fuses metaphysical intrigue and the absurdity of every day life to create a wildly entertaining story.
Nature itself acts as both observer and silent commentator, with wild moments woven through moving revelations.
Pete Beebe is a multifaceted creator whose artistic and philosophical endeavors converge in his debut novel, Dream Fisher. With a BFA from the Corcoran School of Art in Washington, DC, Pete has spent more than thirty years as a professional designer and artist, crafting visual beauty and engaging narratives.
His extensive experience includes deep engagement with Native American ceremonies and an extensive study of spiritual philosophy, particularly where it intersects with scientific inquiry. This unique blend of interests informs his work, both on canvas and on the page, reflecting his lifelong quest to explore and articulate the magic of life.
Driven by the ambition to create beauty in all its forms, Pete’s work blends aesthetic appreciation with deep philosophical insight. Through Dream Fisher and his other projects, he invites readers and viewers into a world where beauty and depth blend seamlessly, offering an experience that is both down-to-earth and transcendent.
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